I am also excited to report that I have a phone date scheduled with my beloved bff Blue in less than an hour! Aside from the fact that I always think about her (ever since I met her that day in French I and she passed me that note about the bearded ladies in her dream) and wish that she was with me forever and ever, I got really anxious last night when I realized that we're on this path where it looks like we only see each other around Christmas when we're both in Winston, already feeling overwhelmed and bloated from the filial festivities. I feel the sudden urge to fill up this space with stories about blue, but I think I'll hold all that excitement and energy in and pour it out over the phone--I'll be sure to report back. Anyone want to fly with me to Los Angeles to pay a visit?
Okay, so my apologies for drawing myself in a bit and not socializing so much in this early part of the week--I'm trying to readjust to a life where Im in school and working full time job while still trying to generally open up more and more. So, I feel the need to clear things (and people) out of my life and dry up some as well (meaning I have to transition away from drinking beer and eating bad food everyday cos-it's-summer). I promise to at least be at karaoke Thursday and then we should play it by ear from there. I think in honor of last fall (and wasn't it an *interesting one) we should have a hootenanny on my roof sometime real soon--what do you think?
There's plenty more to say--I never update anymore. Mostly I'm feeling a lot of things fairly clearly for once (and still feeling muddled about others....) and one of those things is my relationship with my family which I'm realizing, as much as I adore most of them, will never be truly healthy, fair, or respectful in any sustainable sort of way.